Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck
Mood: Heated
Music: Eminem - Cleaning out my Closet
I think for once I'm actually angry. I usually don't get angry as things can't really make me overly upset, but certain things such as a breach of trust can lead to it. Loyalty is important between close friends and if someone breaks that bond, they are no different then your enemies. Now that someone has crossed that line, I don't know whether I can maintain a relationship with that person anymore. The circumstance is beyond wonder and I lack the patience to deal with it anymore and won't dwell on it any longer as it proves to only be a hindrance. Things are better left with choosing a separate path and moving on.
I don't want to make any rash decisions right now since I'm severely heated and raging to the point of breaking something to relinquish this anger I have within me. Is it really this possible for me to get this angry? I don't think I've felt this in months actually. Best to first sleep it off and then head to the gym tomorrow. I'll think of what to do by then.
*Serenity Now*
EDIT:
Now I can't believe what is going on. Another incident. Another part of my trust bond has been severed and the little strand is barely held together. This weird thumping in my chest. Its so strange because I can't get this fucking feeling. I've punched a hole in my wall. My hand is bleeding. My knuckles hurt. There is blood on my laptop. What am I supposed to do? I have to clean this shit up later yet my enraged state doesn't care what the fuck I do. I can't stop these angry thoughts. Playing this raw angry music only adds fuel to the fire and makes me more heated. God its been only three days yet I've been more angry than I have in months. Fuck I don't know what to do. This never happens to me. But my trust has been destroyed. Will things ever be the same? I don't fucking know. I need to stop. Tension inside me is about to explode. I really hope I don't do something I'll regret soon. Just need to calm the fuck down.
Music: Eminem - Cleaning out my Closet
I think for once I'm actually angry. I usually don't get angry as things can't really make me overly upset, but certain things such as a breach of trust can lead to it. Loyalty is important between close friends and if someone breaks that bond, they are no different then your enemies. Now that someone has crossed that line, I don't know whether I can maintain a relationship with that person anymore. The circumstance is beyond wonder and I lack the patience to deal with it anymore and won't dwell on it any longer as it proves to only be a hindrance. Things are better left with choosing a separate path and moving on.
I don't want to make any rash decisions right now since I'm severely heated and raging to the point of breaking something to relinquish this anger I have within me. Is it really this possible for me to get this angry? I don't think I've felt this in months actually. Best to first sleep it off and then head to the gym tomorrow. I'll think of what to do by then.
*Serenity Now*
EDIT:
Now I can't believe what is going on. Another incident. Another part of my trust bond has been severed and the little strand is barely held together. This weird thumping in my chest. Its so strange because I can't get this fucking feeling. I've punched a hole in my wall. My hand is bleeding. My knuckles hurt. There is blood on my laptop. What am I supposed to do? I have to clean this shit up later yet my enraged state doesn't care what the fuck I do. I can't stop these angry thoughts. Playing this raw angry music only adds fuel to the fire and makes me more heated. God its been only three days yet I've been more angry than I have in months. Fuck I don't know what to do. This never happens to me. But my trust has been destroyed. Will things ever be the same? I don't fucking know. I need to stop. Tension inside me is about to explode. I really hope I don't do something I'll regret soon. Just need to calm the fuck down.
