Oh dear Muse where art thou?
Mood: Dismal.
Music: Hellogoodbye - Here (In your arms)
My writing Muse has left me. Gone, goodbye, sayonara, peace, later, ttyl. It used to be my guide. It used to be inspiration. Now it's gotten so bad that I even have trouble describing my own Muse....
Gah, I want it to come back! I just have two more chapters of Vengeance left to write until it's completed. Then I move onto the sequel, but I just want to get it finished! My first ever fanfic which has done great (just check the reviews) and its epic length as well!
Why can't I write? Am I afraid to do so? Am I too lazy to do so? I mean I have an outline so I'm fully prepared to know what to write about, it just that I'm not able to actually get my fingers to correspond to what my mind tells them to do. I guess I might feel afraid that I am not able to stay true to the characters and write emotional scenes well. I always feel as if I'm not properly conveying to my readers what I want them to understand about the characters. Yep, its fear. I'm afraid to fail. I'm afraid I'll let my readers down by not delivering the best I have to give. I have to conquer my fear.
*Sigh*
Its funny because I stopped being able to write when I broke up with my ex. She used to sort of beta (even though she didn't read/watch what I was writing for) my writings. Helping me enhance certain moods and expressions. You know how females are with emotions and feelings; All in touch with them and shit. Especially during "that time of the month" but that's beside the point. I can't do that anymore thanks to psychology. I start to break them down and analyze them. Expecting certain reactions to occur as all a part of the brain's natural mechanisms.
Anyways, I've gotten off topic. My Muse has left. I need to find it. I need to start writing again. Maybe when school starts I'll be able to do so, but who knows. I need to complete my first fanfic, I'll make sure to get it done by the end of this year. It shall be done!
Now...off to find my damn Muse.
Music: Hellogoodbye - Here (In your arms)
My writing Muse has left me. Gone, goodbye, sayonara, peace, later, ttyl. It used to be my guide. It used to be inspiration. Now it's gotten so bad that I even have trouble describing my own Muse....
Gah, I want it to come back! I just have two more chapters of Vengeance left to write until it's completed. Then I move onto the sequel, but I just want to get it finished! My first ever fanfic which has done great (just check the reviews) and its epic length as well!
Why can't I write? Am I afraid to do so? Am I too lazy to do so? I mean I have an outline so I'm fully prepared to know what to write about, it just that I'm not able to actually get my fingers to correspond to what my mind tells them to do. I guess I might feel afraid that I am not able to stay true to the characters and write emotional scenes well. I always feel as if I'm not properly conveying to my readers what I want them to understand about the characters. Yep, its fear. I'm afraid to fail. I'm afraid I'll let my readers down by not delivering the best I have to give. I have to conquer my fear.
*Sigh*
Its funny because I stopped being able to write when I broke up with my ex. She used to sort of beta (even though she didn't read/watch what I was writing for) my writings. Helping me enhance certain moods and expressions. You know how females are with emotions and feelings; All in touch with them and shit. Especially during "that time of the month" but that's beside the point. I can't do that anymore thanks to psychology. I start to break them down and analyze them. Expecting certain reactions to occur as all a part of the brain's natural mechanisms.
Anyways, I've gotten off topic. My Muse has left. I need to find it. I need to start writing again. Maybe when school starts I'll be able to do so, but who knows. I need to complete my first fanfic, I'll make sure to get it done by the end of this year. It shall be done!
Now...off to find my damn Muse.
